![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
little miss random =^_^=
Mar. 1st, 2009
06:30 pm - *giggles madly*
HAHAHAHAHAHHAa
HAHAHAHAHA
*coughs*
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
AHAHA...
Well yeh you get the jist...
Just read back at my last two entries and can't stop laughing
I was so meladramatic wasn't I?
I've kinda abandoned this LJ at the mo,
Cause as the only sensible thin i wrote in my last two entries pointed out.
It was the end of an era
but not a good one that I'd miss like i said
I would like to take this moment to say
THANK FUCK
I had people who pretended to be my friends
I had a clingy whiny bf who made me feel like shit and didnt give me a chance to do any work
I had shit grades
so yeh
what the fuck
I love 2009!!!
possible the best thing ever
I have the most amazing boyfriend ever.
I love him to bits so much, we're just so right for each other :)
I have a group of AMAZING friends who are always there for me
they don't bitch
they don't whine
they don't pick exs over me
they don't abandon me
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and my grades...
*grin*
I've worked my fucking butt off
so yeh :)
I don't know why i needed to post this entry
closure i suppose
cause i know the only people who might look at this will be to be nosey
people who would be happy if i was depressed
so i thought I'd let them know
how fucking gratefull i am!
:D
:D
:D
So yeh
<3 Alex
bye
fuck you all jah?
AHAHAHAH
![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/working.gif){kind=small}
Closed. :DSep. 13th, 2008
10:41 pm
So yeh.
I left this journal on a bad note
but i suppose it couldn't be helped
I left this journal because to me it was the end of an era.
The end of the life I've been writing about for the past 6 years
and i suppose in a way it was
In the past 6 years of writing this journal alot has happened
to me alot of it bad and some good
but no matter how much i cry and whine about it
i wouldnt change it for the world
because it made me the person i am today
it made the people around me the people they are
and although for some old friends it might not have been best
in the long run it must
because thats how life is
i mean, i suppose there must be some aim in life
some goal
and eventually we'll get there
even if times are rough and sometimes your friends arn't always there
each day, each hour, each minute, each second makes you who you are.
and i know that i believe in kalma. and that eventually it'll balance out
even if it takes years
just wait and see what tomorrow brings.
im being strangly optomistic
i need to get this in my journal.
the one that no-one reads.
Life will go on eventually
I'm stood in the broken down Lift of Life feeling more Claustraphobic by the second
i may be in here for years
but one day it'll get moving again and people will start coming in and out
and eventually.
I'll reach my destination.
but feel free to come into my life.
I miss you all terribly.
I miss myself.
So for now, i sign out
for my Lift stuck between two floors, waiting for someone to come back in.
and I'll take my finger off the door shut button.
G'night everyone
keep your heads up.
Life gets better. I'm sure.
summing up song of the moment=
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=7jQ4jO4Aw
![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/sad.gif){kind=small}
nostalgic in a wayJul. 1st, 2008
04:52 pm - urghhh
I don't think I've felt more broken in my life than today
I've had many rants in this blog, some good some bad some just frustrated.
but today i just felt like someone was ripping out my heart
no matter how long i spent trying to get to grips with everything it all came flooding back
it was a very bittersweet day.
the day was wonderfull, amazing i felt so happy all at once but at the same time it was our last of everything and it just broke my heart.
I can't stop listening to this song.
It may as well have been written by me this week.
I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away
And i dont know how to be strong when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let them win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know
It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let them win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let them win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
I'll be waiting forever even if i don't want to.
I'll love Nick Abbott for the rest of my life.
I swear on it.
can't be explainedJun. 20th, 2008
06:19 pm - Love
For the past two years my journal entries have allways been happy and bubbly
and why shouldn't they?
even though i had a few minor issues that i would take any moment to moan about my life was ok
even when things went wrong i had one of the strongest most loving person there by my side.
He would make every situation look good, would just hold me when i was feeling down, tell me how much he loved me every day
and i refused it all. i took everything for granted
these last two days have taught me who i really am
what a selfish cow i've been. how whiny and bitchy i've been
but it appears its way past the point of return
and my life starts to fall in around my ears
the person who has stood by my so long is the one upsetting me
and it's not his fault.
i just wanted to write this entry to apologise to him and everyone else for the person i became
im sorry that things couldn't be better how ever much i wish with all of my heart.
when i get a forboding feeling, bad things always happy, REALLY bad things.
and i hope he doesn't read this because it will just show how whiney i really am.
even in this short time apart how desperate i have become, and weak.
especially weak.
my heart forever belongs to him. <3
wishing to be loved.so tiredFeb. 5th, 2008
09:53 am - 'H'
1. Happiness I seriously love being happy!! cheesy i know...but i don't like me or other people being sad. I'm too empathetic!
2.Hips I actually don't know what skinny girls do without hips. Yeh, you can tell i don't love any things begining with H...but i mean those people with no figure...I mean...whatever...
3.Horses I adore horse, my horses more specifically. Tigger and Topaz. Now why could you have given me T I would ahve had 2 there!!! T_T.
4.Hair more prefereably on my head. I think my hair is my best feature. I like trying to dye it funny colours. Not so much recently though.
5.Hpfandom.net I'd actually think i'd die of bordem without this. I adore it!!! It's actually the only reason i go on my computer now.
6.Harry potter on the same note. I love it and everything about the books. Apart from DH..it annoyed me alot.
7.Hotmail I wouldn't have been able to do anything the computer without this little beauty.
8.Heechula!! omma lubbles heechula
9.Haruno Sakura this charecter just kicks ass. Most recent eps of naruto make me love her more. (*hides from shmegzo's wrath of likeing mainstream*)
10. Hugs I seriously don't think i'd be able to get by without hugs from my friends once in a while. Or our group hugs.
^__________________^
that was funnn
![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/happy.gif){kind=small}
so amazingly happyDec. 21st, 2007
09:36 am - whaaah im such a rebal
so...here's my update
bzahh
^___^
erm nothing much to update aside from the fact i have two video blogs i need to update which i keep forgeting to upload..
please forgive me? =(
whaaaaaah so yeh i'm a spaz, in collage, with nothing to do and...nothing much is happening, just megan showing me random pictures 0___o
hmmmmmm collage is alright, because it's the last day =D
I'm so happy
Christmas soon
Heechul says "Hi, say I'm beside yoo Heeeechulllaaaaa"
ahahaha
Right i'm gonna go check on james lol.
with his coursework
geography
pwned
cya'll soon
*love love*
![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/determined.gif){kind=small}
on another mission! AHA!Sep. 17th, 2007
08:09 pm - vblog 10 - subway pillow
07:34 pm - vblog 9- toilet humour
07:13 pm - vblog 8-cheeky cheeky bus ride
07:10 pm - vblog 7- camping clip
Jul. 19th, 2007
05:56 pm - Whats on your desk!?
you all owe me video replys on youtube :p
on a missionJul. 18th, 2007
Jul. 16th, 2007
Jul. 11th, 2007
Jul. 7th, 2007
08:52 pm - My first blog...again...
finally done..
hope it works...
finally...Jun. 24th, 2007
Jun. 22nd, 2007
02:28 am - been thinking about a video blog
like starting one,
id update my week on a saturday/sunday upload it to youtube then imbed it here
what do ya think?
it'd give me something to do and i think it'd be cool to Actually upload to my youtube account
at the moment i've only got the farne islands vid up
and thats pretty poop
can anyone recomend a good video editor? free?
love huggles and all that jazz
<3
*paints*Jun. 16th, 2007
01:21 am - just thought this was funny
| What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract unstable people! Congrats, you are an 'insane' magnet, and you probably have no idea why. Something about your mix of styles, how you walk not just 'one' lifestyle, but appear to have a foot in them all. To the insane, you appear to be a beacon of hope and they will flock to you, like it or not. But, they ARE insane. Lucky for you, the insane tend to be the best sexual lovers, just the rest of the package deal may not be for you. | |
| You attract geeks! | |
| You attract Yuppies! | |
| You attract artsy people! | |
| You attract rednecks! | |
| You attract models! | |
| What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for MySpace | |
as if i need a quiz to tell em this
01:11 am - in reply to news's post
yes. yes i do need a bear hug.
bear hug pleeease =D
*grins and waits*
![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/energetic.gif){kind=small}
weeeNavigate: (Previous 20 Entries)